I feel like time is a gift, that it's rare to be a person experiencing this life, that if you can feel that way, if you can remember that and here that, your in the right spot. From that spot you have the chance to be a good person, make great art if you want, speak from your heart and it'll mean somethin. I feel like if you get to that point, this time is a gift. I'm not referring to this time off becuz of losing the job. I mean time here on earth. I don't wanna waste my time. I'm extremely aware of it, of what's a good use of time for me, what's a waste of my time and energy. Sitting on a bench in the park with a cup of coffee. 830am. Watching people in professional clothing, black mostly, black shoes, black suits, women and men, filing in from around to a black doorway, to an office building, very fancy and expensive office building downtown by the river. I wanna know what's going on right now for the strangers I'm seeing every day. I know they have lives. I wanna know what's going on in their heads. I wanna hear it. I wanna read it. Not sure what's smart anymore. If I would work that job I'd be paid, but I'd be bored. I believe I can be an artist even tho I don't know how to draw something that looks like something in real life. That's what people I know seem to be most impressed by, or street art, what's trendy, graffiti. I don't think that's what it's about. I think whatever you feel drawn to, you're drawn there, you're being drawn. You have to go with it. It's just another way of seeing things. It's still valuable. Even if it's just a tool for you, to get somewhere for yourself. It takes all kinds. Everything does. There are no rules. There is no one kind of person for something. I feel like all of this is very personal, can be, will be, for me. It doesn't have to be a bunch of quiet people afraid to say what they feel. That this journey, the journey to feel fulfilled and to find peace is different for everybody and you can't put limits on how someone gets there. People can and do, but the secret is to know it takes all kinds and anybody can end up doing anything and should follow what they're drawn to, not to be swayed by other people and the limitations those people on themselves or their thoughts or their thinking. I wanna write books and make artwork that's personal and real. I just wanna make things that are beautiful and I'm proud of. If I think about the future, I think nothing will be hidden anymore. There will be no secrets. The "strongest" people, the people that people will lift up, will have nothing to hide and will have talent at something. I believe that world is the world now for young people. The power's not in being careful what you say, hiding, second guessing, but in being human, with all that that means, good and bad. I don't know how politicians think they can live in that world but that's the real world now. I don't think there can be any fear anymore. I say that but I'm still fearful, of being rejected, of saying something that will be disappointing or go to far and isolate me. But I believe it's important to do what you love. To be an example of somebody who is doing what they love. That's a powerful thing. Not hiding anything. Not being scared. I don't have to be concerned with other things right now. This is my joy. Doing this. Writing and painting. I don't wanna craft everything I write. Sometimes I will. Sometimes I wanna just write what I'm feeling. That's it. I watched this motivational video about Kobe. That lit a fire. So I'm trying to blog more now, write and paint something every day and put it up here. If you're here for the first time, drop a comment and say hello. Share your artwork or your writing or your music if you want to. Peace
p.s. the article the guy references in the video about Kobe's work ethic is here.
"Follow your bliss and don't be afraid and doors will open where you didn't know they were going to be."