|A Huge Golden Church looming over a Woman in a Cage Curled Up like a Cat and a Man or Maybe an Alien Laying Beside Her|
You have to write. Just write. Doesn't matter how it gets out. Just has to. What's the most you can say with words? Watching riff raff, watching lil b, listening to The Fighter and the Kid. I wanna be authentic. I need to say what's real to me. This morning I was down thinking what can I paint that hasn't already been painted? What can I write...But I think the thing is to write what's true to you, your honest point, your honest view. No hold backs. That's authenticity. I think. It doesn't have to be sthg new. It has to be you. Authenticity is everything. I wanna work for it. I'd rather work on pushing myself and my mind and my art now than work for money. The world of words and colors and lines is wide open. To put feeling into things. A lot of people think or feel something and never share it. I don't want that for me.
The painting above is called A Huge Golden Church looming over a Woman in a Cage Curled Up like a Cat and a Man or Maybe an Alien Laying Beside Her. I've always liked churches. There's an energy there that's calming and peaceful. I can't explain it. There's a church nearby here in the neighborhood of Karlin. I've been in it a dozen times. I'm blown away by the fact that even though it's open to the public and there's never any security there, there's never anyone in there, no one steals anything, no one sprays tags in there. It's funny. You step outside and the streets are covered in ads and graffiti, but inside there it's clean and quiet. As physical places I think churches are great, but the spiritual role they're trying to play is tied to dogma. People like me love art and music and movies because they're not tied to anything. And that's freedom.