Tuesday, July 3, 2012

argh

@dad and mom, sorry about the vulgarity in this one, but I have to start speaking on this blog the way I really speak. Anyway I'm 32.

I work as a technical writer here in prague. today I got chewed out in a meeting at work for not being able to tell my boss what the software I write the user guide for does. There are a lot of reasons why I don't know. You could say it's because all of us writers here write about hundreds of different bits and pieces software, and it's hard to know what any of this shit does or why. But the BIG reason is I don't care. I've never given a shit about telecommunications in my whole life. I work here for the money and because there isn't much work. So I can write or do whatever. It's not that I don't work hard from time to time. When it's necessary I do. But it's rarely necessary. I probably could have bullshitted an answer today too. I've done it before to not look weak. But today I just said I don't know. My boss is actually my friend. He's a good guy. But there are rules and one of them is you can't call bullshit in a meeting. It never works. There's no ground swell of support. No one says peep. I'm tired of status reports. I'm tired of meetings. We all have email. Let's all just type to one another so I don't have to get out of my seat to go to another seat and talk about what I write about. I used to actually care though. Things have changed so drastically since I was hired four years ago it's not even the same job anymore. So many douchebags have come and gone. Seeing high up people come in, change shit up to show how proactive they are, and then move on is fucking exhausting. I disconnected myself a long time ago and told myself just to work on other stuff, write, put up a blog, post, make books, make pictures. Justify getting paid to sit here at a desk in front of a computer all day. I can imagine leaving this place but I can't imagine going for another interview somewhere. I'm so bummed by this stuff. People put their whole lives into this shit. It means nothing to me. Telecommunications mean nothing to me.

2 comments:

  1. You don't have to apologize -- ever. What you does speaks for itself. Besides I think it's time for an eBook.

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  2. You can write anything you want. You know that. However, you don’t want to be identified as “the blogger who went ballistic over defining the company’s purpose”

    [It wasn’t a fair question to ask of you, but so it goes.]

    Since you are a better writer, that post could have been, for example, a checklist of how do you [the reader] know if what you are writing is having the desired impact on the target audience. And the checklist tells them what to look for.

    You are smarter than they are. Take what others say and use it to make yourself look good. Your job is not to tell the few what they are doing wrong. Your job is to tell the many how to do it right.

    PS: The post about Pavel’s farm was real nice.

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